The Christian Allure:
Definitely gets me thinking: do I like
tortured souls? I can be quite intense, so I understand intense. Or is it an embarrassing case of the saviour
complex? I know I have a thing for power, most girls I know can’t resist, but
powerful AND tortured? Maybe the two go together? I don’t know. Or, maybe I
like a challenge? However, that Christian is one big helluva challenge – I
don’t know how many times Anna was on edge: whispering, not knowing if he’s
angry with her, not angry with her, angry with himself…phuck *exhausted sigh*?
Wildly intense! *Relationship status: it’s complicated*.
Maybe there’s enough of a broken person in me to see how incredibly fragile and haunted Christian is; that at times I seem to discount his twisted and crazy ways? Half the time I actually found that I wasn’t so shocked and rocked by his reactions or actions *worrying*. However, he’s so mercurial sometimes I think he’s a borderline…no, scrap that…fully-fledged bipolar sufferer.
Being the incurable, but quite
closeted, romantic: I found myself falling progressively in love with Christian
– page after page *when he was at his best behavior :-)*. Book two had me
sighing and swooning as Christian continued to woo Anna. My heart felt so warm
at times, I swear you would have been able to bake a batch of scones in my
chest.
The Anguish:
Christian is so tormented, I actually
ache for him.
There are also some parts in book two
that got so intense I had to remind myself that I was not Anna but in fact
reading a story about Christian and Anna.
- When Charlie Tango went down and Christian was missing for
hours and hours. I felt his mom’s and Anna’s pain so much I had to
remember not to cry.
- When Christian begged Anna not to leave him again – fuuuck that was intense. I would just sit on the floor with him and get a glass of Bollinger…too much to deal with*speed dialing Dr. Flynn*. Would I have left him? I doubt it, too much of a softie ;-) I would have left him the first time though, even earlier than she did, it took her quite a while to snap. The colossal spanking would have been too much for me. It’s a fine line btw ‘kinky fuckery’ and me thinking “hell, shouldn’t he be arrested for domestic violence”. Thin line, too thin on this one. I like drama neh’
Anna’s Inner Goddess:
My love for Anna’s inner goddess knows
no bounds.
And her conscience, just stop, I love
it all!
Would a Christian and Delirious combo
work?
- *Nervous Giggle*: Book one’s ‘kinky fuckery’ and Tarzanesque/Indiana Jones type of moves *all tied up and spread-eagled*? Good girls don’t tell :-) I definitely have hard and soft limits though. Getting spanked/punished every time I roll my eyes *Delirious rolls her eyes at the thought* let’s just say my bottom would be black and blue by the time I’d have married Christian. That’s why the spanking would need to be a fun thing WE do, not some sort of a punishment…but I kind of understand the thrill side of it too *rolling my eyes and looks out for the twitchy palm :-)*.
- To eat or not to eat? To eat. For me it’s about the food and at the same time not about the food: confused much? He takes care of her and being a foodie of sorts and always looking for the next thing to stuff my face with; I must say I really liked that he was always trying to feed her. There’s something heartwarmingly tender about a man who worries about my tummy as much as I do *Cave man bringing the zebra home, cave girl waiting and smiling* Anna, on the other hand, was never hungry *rolling my eyes* Also, Christian’s account of the time he had to eat frozen peas as a little boy when the ‘crack whore’ wouldn’t wake up…made me understand why he was so ridiculously fixated on food.
- The gym or the work out plan: not a problem for this gal *
Delirious says as she considers running on the spot :-)*.
- Christian’s controlling freakazoid ways? It’s another thin line between: taking control, being protective and BEING controlling. I’d have to watch him very, very closely to make sure that the lines don’t blur.
- The “MORE”, need I say MORE *love rush*. Christian is an
action man: he doesn’t just SAY, he DOES. I. love.that.*piano in the
background*! When he does SAY, boy does he say all the right words.
- The tortured Christian: I’m a closet nurturer and soother and
I hate to show this side of me but sometimes it just comes out and even I
can’t fight it at times. I believe in happy endings. Here, the belief
would be in that things do change for the better and that there’s
happiness to be found regardless of any difficulties we might have experienced
in our lives.
"The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to endure, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering".
- The weird: he can braid hair?*side eye* I don’t know what to
think about this one. Other than my friend’s boyfriend, now husband, who
used to relax her hair*true story* I don’t know of any other man who knows
what to do with a woman’s hair except to stroke it or brush it…
- The scary intensity *my inner goddess peeks out from her
hiding place*. “I want your world to begin and end with me” WOWza, too
intense too scary, too-too scary. Very obsessive.
I do
suspect that I might be more of a Kate than an Anna :-) I don’t think I’ve got a submissive bone in me
AT ALL. Sigh, I need romance in my life *looks out the window*.
P.S. This post’s for sista E* and SLV*
:-)
Laters lovelies.
