Thursday 1 November 2012

November’s Playlist


 
Top 3:
Alicia Keys – Girl on fire
Chris Brown – Please don’t judge me.
Khanye West – Clique ft. Big Sean & Jay-Z
 
The Rest:
Rihanna – Shine bright like a diamond
Katy Perry – Wide Awake
Brandy and Chris Brown – Put it down right
Unathi Msengana – Kwa Nolali
Zahara – Lizalise Idinga Lakho Nkosi
Zahara – Thetha Nam
Khaya Mthethwa Idols Super Bass rendition *hoooooked*
 
P.S. I know I’ve gone AWOL, but I’ll be back soon *cue Arnold Schwarzenegger voice*
 

Friday 14 September 2012

All Greyed Up - My 50 Cents Worth.

I thought I’d wait until I’d read all the books before doing a write-up of my fifty cents worth.


The Christian Allure:

Definitely gets me thinking: do I like tortured souls? I can be quite intense, so I understand intense.  Or is it an embarrassing case of the saviour complex? I know I have a thing for power, most girls I know can’t resist, but powerful AND tortured? Maybe the two go together? I don’t know. Or, maybe I like a challenge? However, that Christian is one big helluva challenge – I don’t know how many times Anna was on edge: whispering, not knowing if he’s angry with her, not angry with her, angry with himself…phuck *exhausted sigh*? Wildly intense! *Relationship status: it’s complicated*.

Maybe there’s enough of a broken person in me to see how incredibly fragile and haunted Christian is; that at times I seem to discount his twisted and crazy ways? Half the time I actually found that I wasn’t so shocked and rocked by his reactions or actions *worrying*. However, he’s so mercurial sometimes I think he’s a borderline…no, scrap that…fully-fledged bipolar sufferer.

 
The Romance:

Being the incurable, but quite closeted, romantic: I found myself falling progressively in love with Christian – page after page *when he was at his best behavior :-)*. Book two had me sighing and swooning as Christian continued to woo Anna. My heart felt so warm at times, I swear you would have been able to bake a batch of scones in my chest.
 

The Anguish:

Christian is so tormented, I actually ache for him.
There are also some parts in book two that got so intense I had to remind myself that I was not Anna but in fact reading a story about Christian and Anna.

  1. When Charlie Tango went down and Christian was missing for hours and hours. I felt his mom’s and Anna’s pain so much I had to remember not to cry.
  2. When Christian begged Anna not to leave him again – fuuuck that was intense. I would just sit on the floor with him and get a glass of Bollinger…too much to deal with*speed dialing Dr. Flynn*. Would I have left him? I doubt it, too much of a softie ;-) I would have left him the first time though, even earlier than she did, it took her quite a while to snap. The colossal spanking would have been too much for me. It’s a fine line btw ‘kinky fuckery’ and me thinking “hell, shouldn’t he be arrested for domestic violence”. Thin line, too thin on this one. I like drama neh’
 
Anna’s Inner Goddess:

My love for Anna’s inner goddess knows no bounds.
And her conscience, just stop, I love it all!

 
Would a Christian and Delirious combo work?

  • *Nervous Giggle*: Book one’s ‘kinky fuckery’ and Tarzanesque/Indiana Jones type of moves *all tied up and spread-eagled*? Good girls don’t tell :-) I definitely have hard and soft limits though. Getting spanked/punished every time I roll my eyes *Delirious rolls her eyes at the thought* let’s just say my bottom would be black and blue by the time I’d have married Christian. That’s why the spanking would need to be a fun thing WE do, not some sort of a punishment…but I kind of understand the thrill side of it too *rolling my eyes and looks out for the twitchy palm :-)*.
  • To eat or not to eat? To eat. For me it’s about the food and at the same time not about the food: confused much? He takes care of her and being a foodie of sorts and always looking for the next thing to stuff my face with; I must say I really liked that he was always trying to feed her. There’s something heartwarmingly tender about a man who worries about my tummy as much as I do *Cave man bringing the zebra home, cave girl waiting and smiling* Anna, on the other hand, was never hungry *rolling my eyes* Also, Christian’s account of the time he had to eat frozen peas as a little boy when the ‘crack whore’ wouldn’t wake up…made me understand why he was so ridiculously fixated on food.
  • The gym or the work out plan: not a problem for this gal * Delirious says as she considers running on the spot :-)*.
  • Christian’s controlling freakazoid ways?  It’s another thin line between: taking control, being protective and BEING controlling. I’d have to watch him very, very closely to make sure that the lines don’t blur.
  • The “MORE”, need I say MORE *love rush*. Christian is an action man: he doesn’t just SAY, he DOES. I. love.that.*piano in the background*! When he does SAY, boy does he say all the right words.
  • The tortured Christian: I’m a closet nurturer and soother and I hate to show this side of me but sometimes it just comes out and even I can’t fight it at times. I believe in happy endings. Here, the belief would be in that things do change for the better and that there’s happiness to be found regardless of any difficulties we might have experienced in our lives.
    "The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to endure, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering".
    Ben Okri
  • The weird: he can braid hair?*side eye* I don’t know what to think about this one. Other than my friend’s boyfriend, now husband, who used to relax her hair*true story* I don’t know of any other man who knows what to do with a woman’s hair except to stroke it or brush it…
  • The scary intensity *my inner goddess peeks out from her hiding place*. “I want your world to begin and end with me” WOWza, too intense too scary, too-too scary. Very obsessive.


I do suspect that I might be more of a Kate than an Anna :-)  I don’t think I’ve got a submissive bone in me AT ALL. Sigh, I need romance in my life *looks out the window*.
                                    

P.S. This post’s for sista E* and SLV* :-)

Laters lovelies.

Saturday 21 July 2012

Happy Befday to me!

Yesterday was my befday and a good day it was – as usual I’m not the greatest “birthday do” planner and I winged it through the day. I woke up quite excited and bounced out the house with a spring in my step. I even put on some make-up: a bit of blusher, a swish of mascara and a dash of lip-gloss # Hot Girl. The only niggle: I had an early Client meeting at 8am, got stuck in traffic for 1.5 hours to and from (Witkoppen-New Road-Grayston) and by the time I got the office it looked like someone had vomited paper all over my desk, there was so much to review*sigh*BUT, but, but…my new colleagues really made it so special*even though I only told them it was my birthday on the day*. They turned my desk into a mini Rio de Janeiro during Carnival. It was felt so festive with the streamers and balloons; I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face. I rushed through work and met SLV* for lunch at Tasha’s in Melrose Arch. She bought me bunch of beautiful big, fluffy, cream roses *I really loves me some flowers mehn* and proceeded to get me a “bit” drunk…I couldn’t over do it as I had a 3pm meeting. After work, I went home with two possible entertainment options: pampering myself or meeting with “The G” at about 7pm for drinks. I did neither. SLV* was invited to a L’Oreal function and her Boyf had ditched her at the last minute and never one to say no to an opportunity to dress up I told her to swing past and pick me up*adventure*. We proceeded to have a rip-roaring and inspiring time at the L’Oreal Women in Science Awards*made we want to whip out of a book and study further*…I got “birthday appropriate” sloshed and the only Doctorate I could claim, amongst all those Doctors and Professors in the room, was a Doctorate in Villiera wines *red wine is dangerous* :-) I loved the “birthday present” from L’Oreal too*goodie bags rock*.